LemonadeJellyfish

What's this? What's this? Maker's breath I'm half glad I left, what the hell was I on when I was here? I wonder who is still here? Eh. Anyway. Moving on, dear friends.

So, I have had a rollercoaster of a 2013 so far. I cut again, some of my psychological problems began to get worse, I got rejected for my top Uni, my relationship dissolved and I've cried more in these six weeks than I had in the last 5 months. But despite all that, there have been ups. I've had so many laughs with my friends, I'm more confident in myself, and I've found new love right in front of my eyes. I can be happier, I know I can do it. Some days are awful, and that I can't help sometimes. But I have people to lean on. I haven't been able to draw for a while. I've been so busy. Still, I'll get round to something. Ah yes, Valentines. H

Despite life being nice, I am in self torment for no reason. I do not know why this keeps happening. I get a period of low moods, although I try my best to hide it. I hate it though, I become an awful person during these times, self loathing and spiteful, full of negative thoughts. I'm having to hide anything sharp in my room and force myself to forget where I hid them so I don't do something drastic. It's been a while since I've had one of these moods. About...6 months I believe. At least they are becoming less often. But I can't help worry...what if I remember where that knife is?